June 10, 2004
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Well here i sit and i still haven’t heard a word from Joshua. Im not going to guess what’s going on but i bet it starts with Desi.Oh well i’ll have to wait until he he decides to call me.I have found out the special opps cant tell where there going and that scares me more.
I tried to be a good mother to Joshua i raised him as if he were mine and i know i was always there for him and he never went hungry or dirty and he never had to say he didnt know where i was at ..ever.
I dont know why desi has to cut me out of there life and for Joshua to go along with it doesnt make sense to me.So yes i feel awful and hurt but i forgive easy and if they ever need me im here as always.
The baby is growing sue told me she went out to visit them and Haymony was fat as a little hog she said lol.Im glad they put her on a bottle.We know now she isnt going hungry.I cant figure out why desi wouldnt feed the baby enough when she was nursing but she wasnt and the baby cried all the time.Now she is happy as can be sue told me.Good thing i wasnt around you’ll i would have had a fit to see that baby hungry all the time.Yes theres bad blood between me and desi over the baby but thats just the way i am.I cant take seeing a baby mistreated.and desi cant take anyone telling her anything.Yes all in all ive been pretty good because i know the truth !
Harmony April 5th.
Harmony only 3 weeks later . see how she grew after she was put on a bottle.
I dont know when ill visit you’ll im sorry i havent but ive been torn with worrie.You’ll know i trust God but im human and ill give myself that one.Please take care and ill work thru this sooner or later …love as always .
From the heart of Fancy
Comments (6)
Sweetie, Not only do you need to trust in God trust in Joshua. He has been trained in waht he needs to do. And I am sure he will be good at it. I know how you are feeling and your fears, trust me and don’t let this control your life. I am sure Joshua will be just fine. I worry all the time about my brother. I think the hardest part is the not knowing. Stay strong and think positive. I will have Joshua put on the prayer list her in florida at the chuch I attend when I have the time to go. Hugs to you.
*hugs*
try not to worry so much.
~janny
wow that is a lot of difference in those pictures of the baby. I’m so sorry sweetie, I can not imagine that kind of pain. But our Lord not only knows it, He feels it with you. Rest in Him, He will comfort your heart sugar. Love, Cathie Jo
That’s one gorgeous baby. We’ll all keep praying for Josh.
great photos have a nice weekend.
Hugs
I’ll add you and Josh to my prayer list, it must be very upsetting to let him go. The lord will take care of both of you. I wish I could do something to help take away the pain, but know others are out there that care!
Have the best day possible